Wow! Am I really that old? Time flies when you are living life. Today is the day that marks the birth of my first son, Matthew, and also my birth. The birth of a mother.
I can't say that it has been a smooth ride. Raising tiny humans is no easy task. I would never change a thing. When I became a mother, I learned about unconditional love, commitment, and so much more.
Now, I say you can call me Nana B, or Nana Doula. I am a grandmother, a crone, a wise woman with lots to learn and lots to share.
iWhen I look back on my life, sometimes I wonder how I lived through the rebellious and risky behavior of my teens and young adulthood. Sometimes I think about the pure innocence of my youth.
Honestly, I look forward more now, rather than looking back. I think about all I still want to do, and the legacy I want to leave behind. Everyday I focus on being present with what is; the task at hand, or the people I am with.
There is a delicate balance between the past, present and future. One can live in any of those realities just by thinking about them. I have learned that mothering is only one part of who I am, and it has changed and evolved over time.
Now I have the freedom to use that experience to help other women and mothers, with the perspective that comes with having lived through many triumphs and challenges.
2020 - What will be? Who will I be? Who will I meet? What will be my challenges? Where will I excel? What do I want?
These are the questions I ponder in this early morning before sunrise, before anyone is awake, and before I check my email and messages.